Nothing ever fucking goes right. 

FUCK. 

Now

I'm

Angry

Time for a cigarette.

It's time to say good bye. 

It's time to move on from you. 

You don't care, and my mind has other uses than to be filled with thoughts of you. 

However, you'll be sorry. 

I'll be perfect, amazing, genius. 

You'll be sorry you left me face down in the dirt. 

I won't tell myself I wasn't good enough, but that you didn't feel man enough next to me. 

"Hope I get the chance to travel the world

But I don't have any plans."

-Avicii

If I refuse to do something for others will they never be willing to help me out?
I know people are not so spiteful as all that, but I can't help thinking it's true.
So here I am: people will leave me if I do not obey their wishes or if I say no.

Ebullience:
1 : the quality of lively or enthusiastic expression of thoughts or feelings.
2 : the quality of being cheerful and full of energy; exuberance.

I'm scared to face another day, 

'Cause the fear in me just won't go away, 

In an instance,

You were gone,

And now I'm scared...

-Duffy

My confidence is only as high as my weight is low.

I'm scared, scared to hear your name. I love you, I love you, I love you. Know that. Hear my cry. Understand me. Come back.

Once again I am reminded of the folly in intense hoping. 

There is no denying my own stupidity for falling into this familiar spider's web.