hey, thanks for letting me be a part of your life

or wait

I have no ground with you

I'm just a fucking toy

so, oh, pretty please let me apologize for feeling what you don't want me to feel

"I don't know how I live with myself, I'm so talented"

I say

as I cut a bleeding line into my thigh

I'm putting up walls

Yet reaching out

Panicking

Suffocating

That dead center

Festering

Will you ignore it

Say

It's over now

It's my destruction

And ours

why is it you don't want to know me

the real me

it's exactly the way you want

and i'm fading

so know me

continuously

or 

don't