You say "apologize"

Maybe I should.

I'm sorry I wake up angry

While a cold needle mends

A heart broken 

By nothing more than dreams

It's funny how we shudder at the idea of the supernatural
When all around us life proves supernatural
Getting so angry as we keep our deep hidden
Ashamed of it's unadulterated honesty
We want this surface life where everything adds up
What can be seen and touched
But what about those moments
When you catch a glimpse
Of what lays beneath their surface.
To be in tune
With what you feel
Is to be aware of the feel of others
You're not crazy
They're just disassociated with their true self

in the mirror

face contorted 

silent screams

ripped in two

brain afire

hands scratching 

round your middle

 

I don't want to lose this feeling
When I look at you
And love
Everything
The color of your eyes
The line of your nose
The way your lips curve
Your teasing smile
Your strong arms and thighs
The look you get when you're excited about me
Your sleepy, tousled appearance in the morning
I want to look at you forever

i forgot what i wanted to say
again


so how do i say
that i care
i tell myself i don't
it's just
i can't deal
with
wanting all of you

back to the same thoughts

-snow drifted down 

glittering

making me question

my existence-

what i want to say

-hard to mask-

it's

fine

it's

love like 

a cut trickling down skin

 three hours

watching the curtains breathe

and the slow creep of sunrise

 waking up in the middle of the night

asking how long this time will I lay awake

and why

where does it hurt

a forced puzzle piece

i am

she

i do not fit

i fight

until one day

who am i 

to you