I awoke to thoughts about my future. There were no obstacles in the road, it was smooth and unencumbered. The pristine condition was what frightened me. What if I have devised all the nightmarish futures for myself, but they have no truth in reality? I belong to no one. No one belongs to me. I have no ties, I have no holds on me, why do I linger? What do I fear?
Imperfection, losing, failing, love, humiliation, confrontation, friendship, reality, independence.
The chance for perfection.
The chance to win.
The chance to prove everyone/myself wrong.
The chance to be in love.
The chance to be held in esteem.
The chance to speak my mind.
The chance to have friendship.
The chance to feel alive.
The chance to be independent.